Charlie Sheen is opening up about living in the shadow of his famous brother Emilio Estevez during his Brat Pack days

Charlie Sheen It got real about what it was like to have a brother who was a member of the infamous Brat Pack.

During an appearance on Conan O’Brien’s podcast, “Conan O’Brien needs a friend” On October 6, Shane discussed how he felt when he was his brother, Emilio Estevezwas at the peak of his fame as a member of the Brat Pack, while he had not yet achieved his major breakthrough in the industry.

“I felt terrible,” Shane said. “I felt like I was just taking charge. I felt like a servant on certain nights.”

The Brat Pack was a group of young actors in the 1980s who frequently appeared together in films. Big celebrities included, such as Rob Lowedemi Moore Estevez, Molly RingwaldAnthony Michael Hall, Andrew McCarthy, Judd Nelson and Ally Sheedy.

After appearing in some of the biggest films of the decade, including… “breakfast club” The group “The Outsiders” and “Sixteen Candles” began to receive increased attention. Sheen said that while he was “in the mix” and hanging out with his brother and other actors in “all the VIP lounges and all the private places,” he still felt out of place.

“It was worse… when (they) got all the attention from all the pretty girls… and they were all coming home with them, and I was going home,” Shane said. “I think there’s a line in my (new) book that says my inner bear has been poked, lit a fire, and you can see it from the fucking moon.”

He went on to explain that he “never gave any interest in acting” and that his jealousy never stemmed from his desire to act, but that he was not “part of all the privileges” his brother was getting.

Sheen previously spoke about what it was like to be in his older brother’s shadow at that time period, saying: “I felt so small and left out as I watched the crowd led by Emilio.” He later added that going out with them and “a bunch of pretty girls was like sinking a ship with a fat man – you’d starve.”

In addition to his roles on “Platoon” and the hit sitcom “Two and a Half Men,” Sheen has made headlines throughout his career for his struggles with drugs and alcohol, which began in the 1980s and 1990s. After several stints in rehab, the actor got sober in 2017.

“It was worse… when (they got) all the attention from all the pretty girls… and they would all go home with them, and I would go home.” -Charlie Sheen

“there Actually not challenges with sobriety,He told Fox News Digital in September. “I’m not in touch with people of the past… If I were to go back to those choices to numb myself, or get out of my head, or feel differently, I have a lot of evidence that that would only make things worse and more complicated. I would suddenly feel ashamed. And with that comes deception and manipulation. All of this just doesn’t fit anymore.

When speaking about his decision to sober up, he explained that he “finally decided that I was going to make AA a place I had been through but didn’t end up in” which made him feel as if he was “the captain of my own ship.”

In the Netflix documentary “Aka Charlie Sheen,” the actor spoke about his first intervention, explaining that he thought he was going to his father’s birthday party but walked into a room full of his friends and family, who read him letters about how they felt. He remembers trying to think of ways to get out of going to therapy when his father handed him the phone Clint Eastwood On the other end of the line.

“(Clint) said something like, ‘You gotta get the train back on the tracks, kid…you’re worth saving,’” he said. “It was really emotional. I thanked him, returned the phone to my father and said, “Okay, let’s go.”

Sheen finally came clean in 2017. “You have to be prepared,” he told People magazine. “I keep a mental list of the worst, most shameful things I’ve ever done, and I can look back at that in my head if I feel like having a drink.”